Is this love that I'm feeling?

I left the DR site around 4:30 in the morning. Got home and into bed by 5:30.

At 11:30 I got up when the Helpdesk called. Was only up for a few minutes, then I laid back down. Then, I had a feeling I should just get up and get to work cleaning.

Man, am I glad I did!

I called S. around 2:30 - she was still at the wedding banquet, hoping to get home around 4. She's call me then.

Okay, got more cleaning done.

I've started getting a little vengeful in my cleaning. I threw out a wreath that was at my wedding. I threw out the bride and groom from my wedding cake. I threw out some keepsakes from Ex and I. I'm ready to move on now. I've got anotehr 4 or 5 boxes in front of my house now, including old sheets, clothes, buttloads of the Ex's candles (she should seek help she has so many damn candles), the aforementioned items and various pieces of junk.

I was actually able to vaccuum my living room! It hasn't been really vaccuumed in 9 or 10 months! The living room actually looks clean!

I got laundry done AND folded! My kitchen table isn't piled over with clothes now. My sink doesn't have dirty dishes in it. My stove doesn't have dirty pans on it.

My house is actually starting to look presentable!

Which, again, IS A GOOD THING!

S. called me back at 4:45 - she got stuck and couldn't leave for a while.

S.: "So, what you wanna do? Want me to come up there?"
Me: "Uhhh...I can come down there."
S.: "Well, I feel guilty because you're alway stuck driving home at night.
Me: "Okay."
S.: "How do I get there?"
Me: "Ummm..."

Took a while until I figured out a place we could meet. I live in the middle of nowhere. I tell people I live at the corner of Podunk and Bumblef---. Eventually arranged to get together at 6 at a Park and Ride right off the highway.

I hang up the phone.

Me: "Oh shit! Oh shit! Oh shit! Oh shit!"

I then went into hypercleaning mode, running around the house, making sure everything was put away. Left the house at 5:40, and still beat her to the Park and Ride. Got her on the phone and talked her in since she wasn't familiar with the area.

For the record, I live 35 miles from the office. She lives 5 miles from the office, in the other direction.

When she got there, she got out of the car and we just kissed.

Have I mentioned before that I really like kissing her?

She followed me back to my place so we could stash her car then go out for dinner. Gave her a quick tour of the house (not much to see), and kissed some more.

Went to a local place named Loughrans. HUGE Prime Rib there. We sat on the patio, enjoying the break in the heat and humidity that's been sitting on the North East for the last couple weeks. After dinner we walked over to my car so I could put my leftovers in it and she could have a cigarette. We held hands on the way over, then kissed a little more, then went back in to the restaurant to the bar.

We sat there, talking, holding hands, touching each other on the legs, just revelling in our closeness.

At one point, I got up to use the restroom. When I came back a guy is there talking to her.

S.: "He thinks I have an Irish accent!"
Me: "Irish? That's Jersey!"
Drunk Cassanova: "Really? I don't hear it."

It continued like this for a while, until he finally got the clue that she was spoken for and he went back to drinking and waiting for his friends to show up.

Once more, a local is there with a guitar. I'll give it to the guy that he's got guts. His voice wasn't the greatest and he forgot one song halfway through - twice. Even his friends and girlfriend were harrassing him. Quite funny to watch. Drunk Cassanova was among them.

S. and I eventually left the restaurant around 11:00. Once again, we kissed in the parking lot before heading back to my place.

Once there, I invited her in for a while. I put Breakfast at Tiffany's into the DVD player (her copy, her favorite movie, remember?), then we sat on the couch together.

A little making out at the beginning, then eventually she laid down with her legs across me. I just kept patting and stroking her legs (she was wearing jeans, for those who are interested) and holding her hand. Eventually settled down to having my ond hand on her belly while the other played with her legs.

We spent the entire movie like that. Just sitting there, content to be in each other's presence.

Once it was over, I got off the couch and kneeled down beside her to kiss her. We were like that for so long that my back was cramping up! I tried a half hearted attempt to feel her breast - no resistance, but I didn't want to push it.

We played a little bit with french kissing. Her tongue tastes sweet. :)

If I had continued, I'm pretty sure we would have made love last night. Unfortunately, there were four things at work here counter to that avenue:

• She's tired.


• I'm tired


• I'm afraid of pushing things too fast.


• I didn't have any condoms.

She eventually got up to smoke a cigarette. I repositioned on the couch, and when she came in she laid down on it with me, resting her head on my chest. We laid there for the next 1.5 hours, with me stroking her hair, cheek and arms, occasionally kissing her forehead, cheek or lips, while she snuggled in close with me.

At 2:30:

Me: "Sleepyhead, why don't you go sleep in my bed? I'll sleep here on the couch."
S.: "Nuh uh." (translation for those not familiar with Americanisms - "No.")
Me: "Yuh huh." (translation - "Yes.")
S.: "Okay."

We continued to lay there like that until 3:00, when she finally tried to sit up to go have another cigarette. I had to prop her up, she was so tired. lol

A bit more kissing, then into the night she went to have her nicotine fix. Meanwhile, I did a quick run through of the bedroom, straightened the bed, grabbed my pajama bottoms and a blanket then made sure everything was out of the way.

When she came in, I led her back to the bedroom, where she pretty much just flopped on the bed. I offered to set the alarm for her (she was supposed to be at a restaurant with her sister, brother and father at 1 in the afternoon), but she said she'd wake up.

She then got up and we kissed some more. Then some more. Then some more.

S.: "Okay! Get out!"

Out I went. Went to the bathroom, put on the pajama bottoms, then crashed on the couch.

Slept okay. Woke up at 8. At 8:30 the Helpdesk called me on my cell (thank Jeebus) for a store. So, off I puttered into the computer room to take care of it. She got up about 15 minutes later. Apparently she had slept off and on since 6, afraid she'd oversleep. lol

She should have let me set the alarm.

She went out for another smoke and I brushed my teeth. Told her I had another toothbrush if she wanted to use it.

S.: "God, yes!"

When she was done she came out with the toothbrush to take it home with her. I told her to just leave it there for next time - no complaints. :)

We went out to a local diner for breakfast - service was horrible, but it gave us time to just sit there and stare into space from lack of sleep and enjoyment of being together.

Next Saturday we're going to Christian's house for a party for his birthday. I asked her if she wanted to come up on Friday, then we can head to Christian's place together on Saturday. A hearty agreement.

After breakfast, I walked her to her car, then we proceeded to kiss some more.

In the parking lot.

At 10 in the morning.

Next to a busy road.

I am so totally losing myself in this girl.

So, off we went to our respective homes.

I was planning on mowing the lawn today, but I kind of just sat in front of the TV and vegged until 2. Finally got up and took a shower, then went to Best Buy to get a new DVD player. My old one fried and I had my spare one rigged up yesterday.

Stopped by Target, too. Got some new luggage for my Sweden trip and some CONDOMS!

I've spent the rest of the day hooking up the DVD and trying to program my universal remote. Finally have it all working.

At one point I wrote up some directions and sent them to S. for how to get to my house for Friday. Turns out she was on, playing solitaire.

She's addicted to it.

So, we've been trading emails while I've been writing this, and Nynaeve has been HARRASSING me to get this finished!

I'm almost done, Nyn - I swear.

Tomorrow we're going out for Mexican food. Still need to figure out if we'll meet there or at her place. I'll probably swing by her place since I'm not 100% sure where it is.

I wonder if I should take some condoms with me...