I cannot be, Until you're resting here with me

Man, what a day.

Got into the office around 9. Checked my email (1500+ messages courtesy of Chris), reviewed a few tasks, then unloaded the stuff from my car.

Finally got around to stopping by S's desk. Talked to her for 10 - 15 minutes. Chickened out.

As the day went on, the truck from Maryland finally arrived. Helped unload it, then position the stuff on the floor. Swung by S's desk a few times - she wasn't there.

2:00 - I'm all set to wire in the new racks when Chris tells me I gotta wait for IBM to get on site. Gah. So, I head down to S. again.

She's there this time. I talk to her for 30 minutes. I'm just going "ask her, ask her, ask her", but, again, I chicken out.

IBM gets on site. We unpack the servers and turn them on.

I stop by S's desk a couple more times - not there. Third time, she is. It's 4:05. She leaves at 4:15. We small talk for a minute. Then, suddenly, my balls drop:

"Wanna have dinner tonight?"
"Sure."

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HOLY SHIT! HOLY CRAP! JESUS CHRIST ON A STICK! OMIGOD OMIGOD OMIGOD OMIGOD!

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After some wrangling, we finally decide on a place, to meet at 5.

<FREAKOUT MODE>

I immediately retreated to Jay's cube, where Ex is as well. I just drop on the floor, hyperventilating, and pulled my legs up around me.

Then I space out, trying to calm down.

Talk with them for a while, then I head up to Mike's desk.

While sitting there, my legs would not stop bouncing, full nervousness engaged.

I finally got back to my desk, where I saw I had messages.

</FREAKOUT MODE>

"Store is screwed. Call the Tech."
"Freddie - have you seen about that store?"
"Christian said to pass it to you."

It's 4:45 at this point...

I quickly called the tech, called Christian, sent an email to the desk, spoke to my boss. Then, I told everyone "LEAVE ME ALONE TONIGHT!"

Surprisingly, they did.

Met her at 5. Walked in together. She got stuffed sole, I got filet mignon (only the best). Sat and chatted for a while at the table, then eventually migrated over to the bar.

I love these marathon sessions - 6 hours again tonight. 5:00 to 11:00. We walked out together, and after a moment of hesitation, we kissed each other on the cheek.

I so, SO, badly want to kiss her...but, it was nice to be able to kiss her cheek and to hug her, just to feel her in my arms.

Very nice feeling.

Just before I left, I hopped out of my car and gave her my cell number, "in case she needed some assistance over the next few days."

For once, I was able to push through the cowardice and get all of my objectives achieved today.

I AM SO FREAKING HAPPY!!!!!!!