It’s my heart that pounds beneath my flesh

It's after 2 AM. I'm sitting in the IBM Disaster Recovery center in Sterling Forest, New York. I'm bored. I've been here since 9 AM this morning. I've had about 2 hours worth of work to do all day long with relation to this test. I've burned time playing cards, emailing S. and some chatting with some friends.

Bored, bored, bored.

I miss being with S. Monday and Tuesday were nice to spend with her. The rest of this week has been agony, with me only able to talk to her face to face for a few minutes each day, the rest taken up by emails. Can't really bullshit too long at her desk either. Luckily, it looks like tomorrow may be a bit of relief.

The wedding she's attending is at 11 AM. She's skipping the reception, but apparently it's a damn long wedding...she said she should be free around 4 PM.

Yippee!

I'll give her a call when I get up, then we'll arrange getting together on Saturday evening. Her Father isn't available until 3 on Sunday. If his schedule frees up earlier, we may get together on Sunday as well.

I just crave to be in her presence. I want to touch her. To kiss her and to hold her.

It's been a weird day. While I've been exchanging emails with S., my Ex has been sitting next to me - she's involved in this Disaster Recovery test as well. And Chris is just plain nosey, popping his head in next to me to see what I'm doing, which is usually exchanging an email with S.

I copied all of the emails between S. and I into a folder the other day. The total count in that folder is now 316. We started emailing each other occasionally on April 29. 4 emails exchanged that day. The next was on May 5 - 13 exchanged. We really started exchanging June 9 - 32 emails that day! It's just an ongoing conversation throughout the day.

What? You ask how many were sent today?

Why, I'm glad you asked - FIFTY-TWO!

That's a lot of emails of just random chit chat. Just talking about work, how our days are going and relations with our family members.

Once we're face to face, we just continue to chat about everything under the sun. It's a very natural conversation, which is very nice. Lately there's been the "uncomfortable silence" moments, but they only last 15 to 30 seconds. They usually end with us looking at each other and we start to giggle.

I love that when I kiss her, she makes a happy noise.

I loaned her my copy of Love Actually to watch. It's my favorite movie (Thank's Siryn!). She loaned me hers - Breakfast at Tiffany's. I watched it last night. It was actually quite charming. Emailed back and forth a little bit about that today.

Maybe we'll just camp in front of her TV tomorrow and watch Love Actually together - I'd like that a lot.